Name Notes
Joan Alice Tate
After Alice Notley
You are not dead where I come from
I have never told a lie
In this vision chair
I am held aloft by song
Sometimes shooting from my tips
And tongues and vesicles
And thus I was soar afraid
A compulsion
Looking down at the air-tones
A compulsion
Writhing up to meet me
I have been run through with the terror of being one thing
Absconded all the gunfire of our time
To be dead would be not not so bad
Or so grand
I am repeating something venomous as a specter
Feebly some voice
I took from your pocketbook
No
You gave me
In the cemetery
I was wanting to die
Under the crepe myrtle there
All the starvation of heart
There which kills slower
There which kills others
More painful
Rent which is frightening
Grief which is frightening
A wave as a way of condensing
I confess I stole your name
All of life in two
This preordained folly
I hear our mistakes as I make them
Alice I loved you
Before I ever knew you
Alice I loved you
Drowned beneath the dock as a child
Knocking up at it
A door I kissed
Let the brine
Inside me
Something tugged me up and I didn’t drown there
Where I come from you’re very much alive
Alice I loved you
In the hell where we were 9
And looking so bright in the ink
A confederate cemetery you sent me
Free from confederate cemeteries
Confess
I took your name
Your graves punched through my bodies
Just like stones
I have been in your dreams
Where I burst into motes of sand
You could feel with the edge of your eyes
So never simple
So long before I met you
Tell me there you were
Oh Alice
Tell me where you've lodged yourself in time
Joan Alice Tate is a southern poet, mystic, and transexual living in Western Massachusetts. Her work has been published in b l u s h, antiphony, Stone of Madness, Quarto, and Rejected Lit among others. For a living she washes dishes and is a docent at the Dickinson Museum.